| Visions of me and my peeps at the top |
| Nothing came easy, we needed a plot |
| And they said they’d doubt we’d ever make it |
| But thats the very same reason we fought |
| So close to giving up on life, I wanted to quit |
| Like why keep going if they don’t know you exist? |
| But the fans helped me down like no other |
| So I hope that you get everything that you ever dreamed of |
| Cause I know it’s a bitch |
| Yeah, this thing we call life |
| But y’all are helping me make it through |
| All I dream of is my music doing the same for you |
| But tell me, wheres God when you need him? |
| Why does it only feel like the devil is present |
| When my mind is tempted by my demons |
| Shit, I guess this is all a part of his plan |
| But it’s hard to keep my faith when everyone says that you hardly a man |
| Even though you taking care of your fam |
| Even though you put all your dreams on the line |
| And gave them all that you can |
| I give my life for them, would they do the same for me? |
| It got me thinkin if the shit they said was make believe |
| Cause it just seems like all they ever do is take and leave |
| And leave me in the dust, without a place to be |
| People lookin' in from the outside, they don’t know what you feelin' |
| My worlds caving in, I’m suffocating, crushed |
| By the ceiling, the walls are closing in |
| And 4 years back, if you asked anyone |
| About marco they just say I lost hope in him |
| Well I ain’t even have hope in myself |
| And they keep saying they feel me, but they don’t know how I felt |
| When I was on the ground dying, screaming just for someone to help |
| But no one came, I had to comfort myself |
| Going through a pain, I just couldn’t take |
| I might much rather die, it gets to me everytime |
| I ain’t even tell my mother goodbye |
| These niggas try to kill me, like really these niggas tried |
| So it must mean that there’s a reason I’m breathing and still alive |
| And I dont want revenge |
| I want the niggas to see me thrive and live my dreams |
| And watch me change the world |
| And one day realize that they can do it too |
| They just need someone to open their eyes |
| Cause I ain’t got no hate in my heart for not one of these guys |
| Cause all these cats wanna be gangsta, and I just wanna be me |
| Just wanna be free from the world and shit thats all on tv |
| Seems like I’m dodging all my incoming calls, ain’t replying to texts |
| Man I’m just tryna get away from it all |
| And moms deserves a new house, but I just can’t afford it |
| Feel like I got the perfect song but I just can’t record it |
| If this was my last song, how long would it last? |
| See, I know I’ve fucked up but now thats all in the past |
| Cause everything could be gone in a flash |
| So watch me pave the way and have a team of leaders follow my path |
| And I bet my teachers couldn’t name a day they saw me in class |
| Fuck around, and have me speak to your students, watch all of them pass |
| You ain’t succeed till you fall on your ass |
| Cause shit, we fell way too many times to count, now all of us laugh |
| But they say men cry too |
| Every teardrop from my eye, I ask myself |
| What have you done good for besides you? |
| I’m still a kid so I still make mistakes |
| I just wanna live, before the good times fade away now |
| Before the good times fade away now |
| And where is everyone I used call my friend? |
| I’ve been so lost inside myself, I guess I lost my touch within' |
| I mean, I don’t blame them, I got too much on my mind |
| Trust issues from the past, but I wish I could press rewind |
| And take it all back |
| Fuck rap, fuck the media, fuck the news |
| The internet, and all these fuckin' lies they feeding ya' |
| Fuck apologies, cause everything I did, it happened for a purpose |
| And fuck em if they ever said you worthless |
| So, fuck my anxiety, fuck my depression |
| I just can’t figure out the reason why the fuck I’ve been stressin' |
| And fuck trying to love someone who just dont seem to love you back |
| Cause we all deserve someone to be there when we feel trapped |
| Or lost and confused, we all got something to prove |
| But I just can’t stand the thought of losing someone like you |
| Fuck stressing on the people that put you down for no reason |
| Fuck the ones who said they didn’t believe in everything |
| That you said you would do |
| And now that its done, they start to come running |
| Fuck drinking to the point that you feel nothing |
| Fuck the rumors, fuck the gossip, dog, fuck they assumptions |
| Fuck the ones that said they had your back |
| When they knew they was frontin |
| And fuck every doubt that they had against you |
| They was clowin on you, you thought they was clowin with you |
| But it’s all good |
| Shit, I guess it’s all a part of his plan |
| Cause everything they said I’d never be, is all that I am |
| Yours truly |
| Dear lord, please bless us with the strength |
| To make it through these hard times and when |
| We can’t find our way, please let your light be our |
| Guidance, and if anyone shall be looking down on |
| Another person may, they only be our loved ones |
| Looking down on us from the heavens and may |
| You bless us with the courage to be ourselves |
| Rather then fool ourselves the start of a new legacy |
| In Jesus name I pray, amen |