| I really don’t have to tell you much about this one |
| Because the song is like the song is like self-explanatory |
| You know what I mean? |
| It’s called My Own Hell |
| Story about me, and Midwest side, and Hog style Records |
| And people around me, and my wife, and stuff like that |
| Pretty personal |
| Real ruff copy |
| It’s the only one we got |
| You know what I mean? I think y’all really love the story |
| People are nosy and want to know about my life so check this out |
| This is called, 'My own hell' produced by Don Juan |
| Nigga, my life is straight conflict |
| When all I want to do is kick it hard and make bomb shit |
| Every perimeter I enter is infested with a sinner |
| Seems like I’m losing and never coming out the winner |
| Shit, I’m the only one kicking it Everyone else plotting and scheming |
| But yet they never listen when I say |
| I’m a little piece of love and a pit full of demons |
| Midwest side was record company comprised of all friends |
| Who grew up together and shared ends |
| Nobody stepped on nobody’s toes |
| Don Juan was executive producer, Juan had beats I had flows |
| Scoob and Txx Will did promotion |
| Got it where Mitch Bade was the shit and got Kansas City open |
| Juan got that shit to Quincy Jones through a chick named Mona |
| Three days later Q called us back and it was on Q told us to wait on putting the record out indy |
| The record company will make it to where we’ll have plenty |
| So we waited, should we put this out? We debated |
| But working with Quincy we were elated |
| So now we on the road to L. A. And it was live |
| Till we got to Quincy’s and Don Juan to Scooby and them to wait outside |
| That’s when the tension started to build |
| Niggaz started feeling unappreciated and then shit got real |
| '97 Quincy called back for me and Juan |
| I told my Rogue Dog niggaz just to remain calm |
| I’m 'bout to make it so we can bling, get us nice things |
| And then Don Juan said, «Let's mash for our dreams» |
| Scooby didn’t like the way he spent his money on promos |
| T-shirts and money to make room for logos |
| He thought he wasn’t appreciated, Midwest side depreciated |
| Gone for the summer and everybody waited |
| Bakarii didn’t like the fact he was down with Mitch Bade |
| He felt that he should be the next nigga to get paid |
| Txx Will got tired of being lectured |
| On distribution so the anted up and started Hog style Records |
| My niggaz wanted me to ride |
| Hell yeah I’m down, Tecca Nina’s on both sides |
| Hog style’s like fuck 'em, 'cuz they didn’t believe in 57 |
| Midwest side’s the same, but the love, I’m trynna find my way to heaven |
| Yo This is my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| Just trynna make my records sell |
| Off in my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| We want to Cali to hook with qd3 |
| They wanted the superstar to be me |
| Kicked it with big Q off in the wild wild west they signed me to Quest |
| Didn’t know I was in for some more perspective mess |
| Quest fighting Midwest side over a single |
| All the way from the love angel to Chris Cringle |
| Ceo of Midwest side fighting qd over my budget |
| Qd fighting quest 'cuz he never loved it Warner Bros fighting back and forth with my artists |
| 'Cuz the bitch who’s handling money is retarded |
| Quest don’t like Midwest side, qd3 don’t like Quest |
| And I’m sitting in the middle depressed |
| Warner Bros send me four Gs a month |
| I’m kickin' it at parties, liquor, weed, and cunts |
| When everybody’s fussing and fighting |
| I’m suffering peacefully like novacaine |
| That’s because I didn’t know the game |
| Midwest side, Juan, and qd3, Q W E S T fighting over me Sway and Tech fighting Q over a check he didn’t pay but I suffer |
| Yeah, I suffer at the end of the day |
| Yo This is my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| Just trynna make my records sell |
| Off in my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| My female friends started not to like my woman |
| When they found my marriage was comin' |
| My wife didn’t like my friends from the get go She say them bitches ain’t nothing |
| But fucking famous rapper niggaz for the grip hoes |
| Wifey don’t like me hanging out with E and Beans |
| 'Cuz when we be seeing E and Beans wifey be seeing things |
| Beans don’t like Sheryl 'cuz Sheryl fine a hell |
| And Beans things Sheryl will take the dick to show and tell |
| Sheryl don’t like Beans 'cuz Beans rude |
| She wish Beans would go back to Chicago with her dude |
| Sayin' he don’t like Dr. Wick |
| But Dr. Wick don’t give a shit |
| Zany got Nicky waiting for the hit |
| Wifey study entire 'cuz something look fishy |
| 'Cuz all my relations iffy iffy |
| Wifey thinks Big would try to fuck |
| Big knew if he try wifey was down to buck |
| Now all these niggaz in my rhyme are my people |
| No one can save them not even a steeple could make the equal |
| You’re all my sisters, my brothers, but I’m tired of mediating |
| I’mma sit back and watch y’all kill each motherfucking other |
| Yo This is my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| Just trynna make my records sell |
| Off in my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| This is my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |
| Just trynna make my records sell |
| Off in my own hell, nigga this is my own hell |